My principles, My styles and My faiths

If i tell myself: i am satisfied with my own performance, i will be probably cheating myself. Lying to myself rather than facing the real situations.

I admit that, i am some kind of competitive person,i like the feeling of being the winner. That is why i always work for the best. However, i found that i lost the feeling already, I even almost lost the faith on my own ability. The faith, which is vital for all my achievements.

Are you going to face your problems instead of staying regretful at the moment? I will take the first choice without any hesitation. The problem is: I am still looking for my problem. How it will if there is no problem on that? Impossible!!! There must be a problem waiting for me to be aware of that.

I don't like to comment much on my own plans. I will prove it with the outcomes. Staying confident and working hard all the time. My principles, my styles and my faiths.

The feeling of death

We may be able to give thousands of solutions, ways and even opinions to solve a particular situation. We may also be able to describe the problem as clear as we can and we thought that we are competent enough to face whatever situations.

However, things won't turn as we all wish when we are in the true situation. This is due to the feeling of fear and panic, our mind may not be able to think at all. You won't think to do even the simplest thing.

That is what i felt when i was almost drown in swimming pool recently.

I thought i am able to manage myself in a deeper pool since i know the way of getting myself float. However i failed to do so when i get into the water. The feeling of fear came to me suddenly when i saw the dark blue underwater world. The spaces really frightened me and the first thing came to my mind was to get out of the water!

In order to get out of the water, the way is to swim. It's easy for me to swim to edge of pool, which is not as deep as the center of pool. I did something wrong: i tried to jump for help. The more time i jump, the more water i drank. The water pressure made me feel hard to breath.

Nothing came to my mind but death.

I could achieve the edge with my silly displacements at last. I could save myself at last.

When i rested myself, the rescuer came to me and asked me a question: what's the taste of water? I smiled with him and replied: not bad!

My way of solving problems is to get myself to imagine of getting in the real situation and think about the ways. Now i realise that no matter how good am i in getting solutions, i still cannot get myself to solve the problem. Emotion will always lead me whenever we are. When i can really get control of myself?

It's still a long way for me to learn.

Amazing paper art

I admit that i like robots very much. It's normal for a young boy. However, i won't know what is Gundam, even though they are very famous among teenagers.


For me, the structures of the robots will be much more attractive to me compared to its defensive powers. The nerves, the vessels and every part of of robots, and even its every robotic movement seem luring to me.



Paper art, another artistic toys i just found even though it has been existed long time ago. It's equally structural amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ho!!!!!!!!!!




Amazing???

I am stupid!!!

Guilty. The feeling that i fear the most. That is the feeling that tells me i did something wrong.

I am always aware with what i am doing for the moment, however, things become hard to control when i am really in the situation. Minds wonder around as if out of my control. I am very confident with my self-emotion management, but why i always fail to do so?

I am very afraid of failures. Failures, failures, failures. Again, again and again, for how many times i have to repeat these before getting my success?

I admit that i am not calm enough to face problems. When can i do it successfully??? I am really such a failure!!!!!!!!!!!!

When can i do things by following my own plan but not my emotion???

Internal Affairs

My another hobby is watching movies. However, i seldom found movies there are worthwhile for collection. One of the movies that i prefer the most is Internal affairs, starring Andy Lau, Tony Leong and Leo Lai.


What i like is about the storyline and even the characters in the movie, especially the inspector starred by Andy Lau. He was not considered as a total bad guy, but he showed conflicts in his character. His real identity was a spy from a syndicate and his job was to spoil police's plan in fighting crimes.

The reason i like the character is not about the way he covered his true identity among cops. I just wonder: how he managed his true feeling deep inside his heart? Could he tell himself to do the right things all the time? That was not something a normal human being can achieve. The conflicts inside his heart would never stop as that was not his own choice.


Another person i like, Inspector Chan Weng Yan in Internal Affair, starred by Tony Leong.

A real inspector that would never forget his true identity whenever how dangerous he was in the syndicate. The scene that i like the most is: when the Chan knew Lau's identity and he made his attempt to kill him on roof, Chan pointed his pistol on Lau's head and said calmly: Sorry, i am a cop.


That was his last word spoken before his death. We can imagine how loyal he was to his cop's identity.

Hope you all like this movie!!!

What the amazing Lego!!!

I will never forget a painful experience during my childhood: My mum beat me seriously when i was caught from stealing a toy from neighbor's child, a small Lego man.

I have dreamed of having a set of the toys and that only came true when i reached my secondary age.

That has been a Lego exhibition in KL convention centre recently. It called upon my childhood nolstagia.






























Believe it or not? They are all made of Lego!!!

Homeliness

The second weekend i came back from college. My dad went to take me as usual.

As usual, he would ask me whether i am hungry so that we can go to have supper together. Even though i knew that was his excuse to have supper, i still went along with him.

My dad is a funny guy. He likes to use his only son as an excuse to do something he likes, just like having supper by telling my mum that his son is hungry. Or else my mum will nag at him again.

Two guys sat down without telling much. Just like two strangers having supper together. I kept finding out topics to chat with my dad, but i failed to do so. I just wondered why i failed.

People say i am a well-socialized person. That's true. I can mix around with people, even strangers without using much time. I can get topic to chat easily. But why i can't do it when i face my dearest parents?

Suddenly, i felt there is a distance between us. Communication gap always exists between my parents and i, but now it's getting larger.

Getting further from home, but i never miss my home. Soon homeliness may become homeless.

That's what i worry about.

Sun rise or sunset?

Another meaningful picture taken during my long vacation. The picture was taken in a railway station in Kuala Lumpur. It used to be the main railway station of the city. The historical building is now utilized as a train museum.

Sun rise or sunset? Just like another funny psychology test: by filling up water into a glass but not to make it full, then asking people whether it's half full or half empty?

The conclusion made from the test: those optimistic enough will probably answer half full whereas those pesismistic will probably say half empty.

Then from this picture, we may also get a simple logical conclusion:
optimistic people will see sun rise.
pesimistic people will see sunset.

However, my economics lecturer won't answer like that way for the glass-water test. People from different fields will give different types of answer based on their field of study.

An engineer may answer: How many liters of water need to fill up more? What is the volume of water needed?

They may also look at the picture and say: may i know the position of the observer?

They will give a more quantitative answer rather than simply giving a simple logical answer.

So, what conclusion can we make from engineer's mind?

Greeting words to 2009/2010 intake

5th July, the day we have to check in to our residential college. The day that symbolizes new begin of my 3rd semester. New faces, new styles and even new bloods.

I am here to greet the new bloods of universiti Malaya. Welcome to universiti Malaya! Congratulations to all as you all are now in the FIRST CLASS university in Malaysia. Here you are going to start your another extend of your life, another different university life that you want to live!.

For those who are lucky enough to enter 2nd residential college, Welcome home! Soon here will be your second home and you will never think to go home!

University life, a different mode from high school life. You will have more freedom here, free to see, free to experience and free to know whatever people you like. Lecturers won't nag at you like your high schools teachers. Seniors won't nag at you like your parents. You yourself have to take care of all your own business because they are all your responsibility, your life.


I am sure that you all must be excited enough when being here. Certainly. Just like the time i was a junior. Greater exposures to different cultures compared to your high schools. Try to experience and learn from them. However, you may lose yourself easily unless you set your own goal, own direction in university. Manage your life with wisdom. It will help you a lot.


Few words from the bottom of my heart, pieces of my own experience. Explore the rest with your nature inquiry.

Good luck and all the best.

Food Vs Population ???

National Geographic June's issue: The end of plenty.

For almost a century, we mankind live in an environment with sufficient food to sustain after Green revolution, a revolution of agriculture from the introduction of new techniques in planting crops, and even new grain varieties with higher harvest compared to normal varieties.

As the consequence of the Green revolution, people from countries which have struggled from famine for a long time could have lead lives with plenty of food. The Green revolution not only has brought scientific planting techniques, new grain varieties for farmers, but also wealth.

Thanks god for the revolution. It has brought new lives for many people, and it also ended many people's lives.

In India, getting clean water to drink is almost impossible for people living in slums. They can only get contaminated water from rivers polluted by pesticide and chemical fertilizers. As a result, thousands of people die from cancer due to the poisonous water.

Now,shall we appreciate for the Green revolution?

According to records by World Food Organization( WFO), the grain stockpiles in the world has been the lowest lately. We are now not only facing food shortage, but food crisis.

We are now only proving Malthusian's theory. The theory that explained the relation between the increase of food and population.

The conclusion from the theory: the food production can never catch up the increase of population!

This is because whenever the food production increases, human will increase their population due to the food security. They know there will be enough food to feed them. Therefore, when the Green revolution increased food production, the number of population has become skyrocketing.

People will have to conquer the environment to get more lands for farming, living.

People even wish for second Green revolution, with the confidence in genetic engineering, they believe that they can produce new grain varieties with more resistance to weather and diseases.

Saved from the food crisis or keep playing around the Malthusian's trap?

A river with 3 colour?

Going to start my second year life in university.

My wonderful first year was just over. Nothing's special found in both campus and residential college, but something strange was found during my long vacation.

A river with 3 colors, they were brown, dark green and plain water color. This picture was taken in a morning after raining. I took it on my way to work.



From that picture, we can see the brown river water only appeared at the river banks which is believed to be the accumulation of mud from the drainage system of the city. On the right side, where the water appeared dark green is believed to be the growth of plankton on the base of river. Some fishers fish there often. I believe that the growth of fish in that river is due to the existence of the plankton there. Fish are fed with the plankton and and grow in the river. However, what sustain the growth of plankton?

At the bottom of the picture, we can see the color of river water which we are familiar with. The water may flow from the drainage system and most of them were rain water. The mud brought along accumulated at the river bank.

Kuala Lumpur is the city famous of flash flood after every thunder storm. Flash flood has become nightmare for the city people. Massive jam accompanying with the flood, and even the lost of assets after every flood have nightmared city people for many years.

Rivers and city drainage systems are the key of solutions.

I don't know why people still like to litter anywhere they like even though they understand the impact. Perhaps they think that they will be going to spend less time to throw rubbish anywhere they are compared to put it into garbage tank. This is because garbage tanks are not something available everywhere,especially when you are looking for them!!!!

There is nobody to be blamed, and we can only blame garbage tanks: you all are not considerate enough!!! Why you hide from me whenever i look for you??? You all are the cause of pollution!!!

Funny! They play roles to keep our environment clean, but they are to be blamed!